Somewhere between scraping pancakes off the breakfast plates and taking down the Christmas tree, it hit me, it had happened again.
Though I love Christmas, I confess it can be a mixed bag of joy and excitement coupled with anxiety and dread. The whirlwind of “doing” and “stuff” often leaves my soul empty and my heart disengaged. I can find myself wrestling with the fact that redemption doesn’t look the way I thought it would and that not every gift from above is tied with a pretty bow. As I put the last of the ornaments back in the basement last year, I prayed for next Christmas to be different.
Time passed, and I started to feel a desire to give something to the people of Central. My time on staff as a youth director and worship leader has been true joy. Central has shown me such love, and now a need to reciprocate tugged at me. As a musician and a songwriter, I’m always struggling to accept that what I have to offer has value. I tend to look at others and think their gifts are more valuable than mine. But now I felt I could move forward with what I have been given and create something of value...something just for Central. And my heart, my musician's heart, sings its longings. So there it was, the gift: an album for the people of my church, available for free.
Once the decision was made, God began to bless the steps, even while it seemed as if I was feeling in the dark. From co-writing, to recording, to cover art, and much more, many wonderful people willingly gave their time and talent to the project. Of course, it wasn't without some drama, like the day we recorded piano tracks in the sanctuary and wrapped the Steinway in blankets and prayers to muffle the booming noises of the condo demolition next door!
The tracks were perfect. With four songs completed, I couldn't quite find the words for the fifth. Instead, they found me.
When trials come and weigh you down
You can catch a glimpse, you can hear the sound
Of the angels singing heaven's song
Saying, "Child, hold on! It won't be long!"
(Chorus) He has come to reign in our broken hearts
We will doubt and fear no more
He has come to reign in our broken hearts
All we lost He will restore
Written over the course of nine years and not originally intended for Christmas, "He Has Come To Reign" became the title song. My journey from lost opportunity last Advent to the joy of giving this Christmas season has been a breathing, aching example of how God knows our hopeless grasping and weariness, and in that state he comes to us and he saves us. He HAS come to reign, he IS reigning, and that is worth celebrating!
So please accept my gift, made especially for you. I pray my journey and my music are a balm to your soul to help you focus on the birth of our Savior and what an amazing gift that is. I pray all will be inspired to share freely the gifts we have each been given. Trust God in this, and I promise, the gift will be yours.
In him, Sherdonna Denholm
To download your free copy of "He Has Come to Reign," please visit www.sherdonna.com